Tearing my Hair Out

There is never a dull moment in my house...in my family....in my life.  There are mythical people that don't do much.  They clean their houses.  They rest on the weekends.  They sleep in and stay up late and have fun all of the time.

I am NOT one of those people.

In fact, right now, I am overwhelmed.  I am doing too much.  I am drowning.   There is too much going on.  I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

That is what my world is right now...Chaos.

1)  We are moving.  I am packing the entire house.  Every single time I think I have things together, I find something that was out of place and just gets thrown into a box.  In the middle of this whole adventure, I am going out of town.  I won't be here for a lot of the moving.  I am overwhelmed by the boxes and the stuff.  I am seriously about to have a meltdown about Legos.  I am seriously having a meltdown about useless junk that we don't need, but that people keep sending to my house.

2)  My timeline for this move situation is compressed....like a slinky.  There is a week.  We have to move into a house, move out of a house, set up a house, and get settle. In a week.  Every box needs to be unpacked in 7 days.

3)  I got a new job.  It is going to be a challenge.  It is going to be a time management challenge.  I will work until 4:30 or 5:00.  I am going to have to do some significant reorganizing in my new space.  It is going to be very labor and time intensive.  This has to be done before I can actually start my job.  I can't teach in the space I have.

4)  I am running another marathon.  I am terrified of the time limit.  I don't think I am going to make it.  I am afraid that I am going to fail.

5)  I am struggling with the leadership roles that I am in.  I love volunteering my time and working with the people on my teams.  But things are different.  There is tension that I don't understand.  I don't have time to fight with people.  I don't have time for games.

There is a light.  In 5 days, I will have my house packed.  In 5 days, I will be driving to my conference.  In 5 days, my part is done.  I will pick back up when I get back.  I am taking control of my house when we move.  I am not going to worry about feelings anymore.  It is my house.  They are my children.  I make the decisions about what comes into my space.

There is light.  After the move, once everything is unpacked, I get a week in my happy place.  I get to sit on the beach and watch my children play.

There is light.  I have amazing people in my life.  I have a supportive husband who just goes along with my crazy ideas.  I have an amazing group of friends who pick me up when I am down and encourage me along the way.   I have wonderful kids.  They aren't perfect, but they are mine.  We have work to do, but they are on their way to being good people.  I have a team of people.  For whatever reason, the vibe in out of whack.  I hope to figure out why.  But, I am not alone.   I have friends who are willing to give up their time to help me get my world in order.

There is light.  I am fortunate to have a job.  I am very, very excited about it.  I can't wait to start.

There is light.  The marathon has a finish line.  I will get to it.

 It will all work out.  It will all be okay.  The world will realign and my chaos will settle.  I know it will.  There might be stress until then.  But, there is always light.

Another recap

It's been a long time.....again.  Let me catch you up....again....

1)  My little guy turned 4.  I am not sure who let him grow up, but he did.

2)  We accidentally bought a house.  We didn't mean to.  I mentioned that epic IEP meeting in my last post.  We thought for about 2 seconds that we might have to change schools, which meant we started looking at new houses.  As we were looking, we started feeling cramped in our current house.  Then we found it....our forever house.  

It's everything we want.  There is room in the house for the kids to play.  It's on 3 acres.  There is a place for my husband to have a man cave in the garage.  There is a barn.   It's been a long...long....long process, but we are finally ready to move.  Our house sold in a week.  We are very blessed.

3)  My oldest babies turned 8.  Again, who said that was okay??

4)  We took a family camping trip.  All of the boys were in heaven.  I guess I am going to have to go camping more often.

5)  I started running for Girls on the Run Hampton Roads.  I am a SoleMate.  I didn't think I wanted to be, but I am. Which means...

6)  I am also a member of the J&A Training Team.  I got a marathon training plan in my email a couple of weeks ago and I am off and running.  I feel a little dirty, like I am cheating on my beloved running coach, but I hope he understands.  The Training Team was part of the Solemates package.  There are many, many days that I want to send him my training plan to make sure that it has his seal of approval.  We'll see how it goes.

7)  I am running a LOT....like a lot.  I started this running journey with 3 days of running a week.  Then Coach upped it to 4 days a week.  Now I am running 5 days a week.  I am running a lot.

8)  My running group makes me happy and keeps me going.  I tell them what I have to run and they show up.  They are fantastic and I love every second and every mile that I am with them.

9)  We took a trip to Niagara Falls.  I still need to get a video together, so watch for that.

10)  I GOT A JOB!!!  The stars aligned.  I am not sure where I am in my journey with God.  But, this opportunity was divine intervention if I have ever seen it.  I filled out an application for a neighboring school system.  With this system, you apply for individual positions.  I got a call from a school that I had not applied for.  I agreed to an interview and had no idea what I was interviewing for.  Come to find out, it was a Reading Specialist position.  It would have made me happy, but it is not where my heart is.  At the end of the interview, the principal mentioned that she had a library position open.  We chatted about that for a few minutes and I left.  The next day I had a phone interview with the library supervisor for the city and the next day I was offered a position.  God was looking out for me.  I am really excited about this adventure.

So, there you have it.  You are all caught up.  I am going to try very, very hard to keep up with my writing.  I mean, I have marathon stories to tell you.